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So my day was horrible right from the start..a co worker of mine had lost her brother in law in the river that flipped in the river as they were working on a barge or something. So since I am really close with her it was hard to handle what she is dealing with. Then have a crappy job to deal with and having to deal with your boss that call you slow and that I need to speed up makes it harder. My body is drained to the point of I just wanna sleep all day. Then to have the negative thoughts come in my head and want to do things to myself that scare me makes it harder to have to see that my job is doing this to me. I have no where else to go I had to take this job for the insurence and leave my last job that I really liked and relaxed at it I got treated better at my last job than this one. Im not really looking forward to going back tomorrow I just wanna scream and tell them to F off..lol but I need the money and I just gotta try and stick with it I guess...